So often we find ourselves in the place that Moses was in, in Exodus 6 when God calls him to lead the Israelites out of Egypt.
Moses argued with the LORD, saying, "I can't do it! I'm such a clumsy speaker! Why should Pharaoh listen to me?”
But Moses forgot that it wasn’t him that would speak, rather, the Holy Spirit would speak through him.
Many times, when the Holy spirit spurs in us to go and share the gospel with someone and to help them out of the captivity of their sin, the first thing we do is begin to tell God why he cannot use us and why he should choose someone else.
The thing we tend to forget, like Moses, is that it is not us speaking, but God empowering us to speak with his Holy Spirit. This is never demonstrated better then in Numbers 22:28-
Then the LORD gave the donkey the ability to speak.
God is able to make a donkey speak- an animal which doesn't event have the ability to vocalize words. But we as humans worry that we won’t sound smart enough, we won’t have the answers to a person’s questions, or that we will be rejected. We get so focused on our own insecurities that we don't realize what God wants to do through us for his kingdom.
This verse is on a sticky note above my desk. I look at it all the time being reminded of a few things.
- I need to ask God for direction. Most of the time there are multiple times a week I am planning and preparing sermons or Bible Studies. And honestly there are many times when I think “what am I going to say, teach, preach this time…” And then inevitably I look up at that sticky note and God reminds me to ask him.
- I can accomplish anything. When God empowers me with the Holy Spirit, I can accomplish anything he wants me to. Just like the incompetent stubborn donkey. God used something that had no ability to show his power.
- I am just a tool. Sometimes it is easy to think that the success of ministry or the gospel being received had something to do with the crafty way I presented it or the way I strategically listened to the person. But the success of the gospel going forth is not due to my skilled, persuasive speech. It is the Holy Spirit convicting the hearts of people; going forward, I have to maintain the perspective that I am blessed that he would choose to use me as a tool to accomplish his gospel.
So next time you feel embarrassed, shy, or you don’t know what to say when the Holy Spirit is stirring, think, “I might just be a donkey, but I am excited and willing to let God speak through this donkey.”